(I want it to be, like, messy)

I'm so insecure I think
That I'll die before I drink
And I'm so caught up in the news
Of who likes me, and who hates you

And I'm so tired that I might
Quit my job, start a new life
And they'd all be so disappointed
'Cause who am I, if not exploited?

And I'm so sick of seventeen
Where's my fucking teenage dream?
If someone tells me one more time
Enjoy your youth, I'm gonna cry

And I don't stick up for myself
I'm anxious and nothing can help
And I wish I'd done this before
And I wish people liked me more

But I got smarter, I got harder in the nick of time
Honey, I rose up from the dead, I do it all the time
I've got a list of names and yours is in red, underlined
I check it once, then I check it twice, oh!

All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (upset, oh)

They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here

I don't like your kingdom keys
They once belonged to me
You asked me for a place to sleep
Locked me out and threw a feast (what?)

The world moves on, another day, another drama, drama
But not for me, not for me, all I think about is karma
And then the world moves on, but one thing's for sure
Maybe I got mine, but you'll all get yours

I feel like no one wants me
And I hate the way I'm perceived
I only have two real friends
And lately, I'm a nervous wreck

'Cause I love people I don't like
And I hate every song I write
And I'm not cool, and I'm not smart
And I can't even parallel park

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me

(Yeah, she's having a really good time)

Got a broken ego, broken heart
God, I don't even know where to start

(Look what you made me do)
(Look what you made me do)

I'm sorry, the old Taylor can't come to the phone right now
Why?
Oh, 'cause she's dead! (Oh!)

All I did was try my best
This the kinda thanks I get?
Unrelentlessly upset (upset, oh)

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me do

Ooh, look what you made me do
Look what you made me do
Look what you just made me do
Look what you just made me

They say these are the golden years
But I wish I could disappear
Ego crush is so severe
God, it's brutal out here